So the past few days have been horrible.
I have been attempting to pick out a wedding date with Kevin since we have been engaged over a year. This has been a hot topic for awhile. Thursday we discussed things and we said wed have a follow up after the weekend. We had a great weekend, he stayed over almost every night. Tuesday night I made us dinner as usual, and after kissing, dinner etc. He said he couldn't make me suffer any more while he made a decision. That he wanted to marry me, but the timing wasn't right. He just doesn't think he's ready for the responsibility of marriage yet. He took back my ring. Then he called that night and we discussed things for 3 hours. exhausting & emotional. He called and came over last night. He apologized for his behavior & gave the ring back. I took it, but told him I didn't want to be with him if he wasn't sure if he wanted to marry me. He said he just wants some time to figure everything out. I told him I will not wait forever. I cried a lot. I told him everything I'll miss about us. Snuggling in his armpit, dinner & ghost adventure nights, red sox games, kisses, more Im sure i cant remember. He said he just needed to go think & left. I haven't talked to him since last night.
I am very proud of myself for avoiding emotional eating. I have still made good choices, tracked my food & even hit the gym. (my foot is a story for another day) I had a loss of 2.5 today for WI! so that was some good news.
I am really hoping he figures himself and his personal issues i know he needs to work on. I want nothing more than us to be together and happy.....
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That's a great loss Steph! We have similar stats. You're very inspiring for how many races you've done. If you have any training tips for a half marathon I'm all ears :)
Sorry about what's going on with your significant other. My bestfriend knew from date 1 that she was going to marry her husband and he broke up with her a couple of times cause of unsure feelings but it was meant to be and it worked out in the end.
I hope things work out for you. :)
JaJo - as far as half marathon training tips I followed the plan from runners world i posted on a earlier entry or something my trainer gave me. I tried to do more core & leg strengthening. I usually did 2 shorter runs, 1 interval or speedwork run during the week indoors on treadmill, and a long run outdoors on the weekend.
Celeste- thanks for the words of encouragement. It gives me hope. I think it will work out in the end, hopefully a little time apart will make him realize it. It sucks being the person that knows, while the other doesnt like your friend. hopefully ill be posting good news soon...
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